i dunno how to express out my feeling now.the feeling of crying but cant cry out.seriously really hope i'm thinking too much.dear god,please bring me back to where i should be.everything around is changing,but please tell me you and your love didnt change at all.we'r really falling apart,i almost cannot feel you anymore.i no need you to be rich,clever i just need you to say you love me and really love me):

schedule for next week is out): no full day off,shag lor! but not much change lurrhs,just tat wednesday at Yewtee and Saturday at Bishan other than that all at BoonLay@@ public holiday i m working too): but at least got 1.5more lurrhs! ytd off day didnt went anyway,was at home whole day looking after huien.baby only book out at 4pm plus ytd,after he is home,had dinner together,watch teevee and use com!now at boonlay uh & my baby still sleeping soundly at home.maybe somehow i think NS is really very stress for my baby,he almost breakdown ytd and cannot take it): today after work gonna bring baby see doctor,and gonna go giant get some daily stuff!yawn~ i m feeling tired oso siol.i MISS MY SKINNY BABY DAMN LOTS LURRHS,but dun bear to wake him up from his sleep!why m i feeling kind of sad lehs?my friends around me,get marry de get marry,got baby de got baby.when will it be my turn?somehow i oso want to have a family of my own): toodles~

wondering what my baby doing,been to outfield camp since last nite.and now his phone is off!ytd was working at yew tee cause is braces day and i got to adj my braces oso! work till 11plus last nite,and today start work at 9 @ boonlay): so freaking tired lurrhs.receive fone call from my daddy just now,he say he very long nv saw me le!ask me go find him when i free,but dun wait till the day he die liao den go see him=.= since morning till now or i should say later in the evening only me alone working in the clinic with doctors! so tired lurrhs!tml working 2pm @ yewtee but gonna wake up at 11am cause got some stuff need to do! and here i come my SATURDAY:D

ps: my 8years friend,

is like you have make me feel damn disappointed in you alright!those words you can say out from your mouth saying that i wanna snatch your husband?oh pls lurrhs,dun you noe i love my boyf alot ma?when they ask us talk face to face and you dare to look at my face when you talk,isnt it so obvious that you know you r in the wrong and dun dare to face me? after i went home,what did you told elaine?say whatever i say is lie?omfg lurrhs,why should i lie over such thingys?i treat you as a bestie den tell you lurrhs,dun you yourself noe very clearly that your husband can find a better girl than you.you love him then stop treating him that way la,he damn poor thing okay!i dunno whether you will read this or not,but i dare to post out i dare to let you see=.=

yawn~ i'm soooo tired,only had less than 2hours slp jiu need wake up for work le): friday was working at bishan,after work went to eat pasta mania with baby & juncheng! headed over to lim bang and slack,but abt 1plus baby cannot take it le so we went home first.wake up at 2plus on sat,so happy cause is my off day(: only manage to went out at 4plus cause of somethings happen lurrhs.went to yew tee there do some stuff first,took train down to orchard.walk around at ion,wisma & taka.bought tops from topman for baby & malcolm:D abt 9plus,me and baby walk over to shaw house there met caiyun,juncheng,elaine & grace.slack,walk to cine waited for elaine's husband,andy to off work at 2am.during that time we was like doing stupid stuff lurrhs,like playing HEART ATTACK!laughs! took abt 2.30 took cab to geylang lorong 16 there for supper): then hop on NR go home:D was like sooo tired can.hug baby slp.i realise something i love to hug my baby alot even if he is veri veri SKINNY:D i just simply love his smell,laughs! later going over to yew tee,find that zhi zhi(: going have my teeth cleaning and baby check up lurrhs! took quite alot of photos with baby last nite,post it when i'm home bahs as this com no bluetooth): next sat,i'm OFF again woot:D

this post is specially for my love,Terence Lim~

BABY BABY~~

tml will be the day that we had known each other for 1year&9months le.times really passes very fast,we also had already patch back for going 8months.suddenly remember alot of nice memories and of course promises you left in my heart.but recently really alot of stuff happen,that make our relationship on a rocking boat.is like if make a mistake in whatever we say or even we do,this boat will turn out which will be the end of our relationship le.for this past 7months plus,i know baby had been torturing my stupid fucking attitude and i had been climbing up onto your head and shit. everything was still okay till first of may,remembering what you told me!but i make a very big decision to forgive and forget what happen,i m not trying to say i'm veri wei da.if it was other couple,you should know what the girl will do lurrhs!since that day we had been trying very hard to save up this gonna broken up de relationship,you remember mahs? remembering what you promise me now you might say whatever you promise is just not to want me to be unhappy,but i seriously hope you will do what you promise me.like me,i'm trying my very hard to do whatever i promise you so i hope baby wont give up on our this relationship cause you still need to hold my hand when we are 80yrs old at bugis street smiling w/o teeth,you still need to bring to take wedding photos every 10yrs wedding anniversary.all this are so beautiful promises,it need both of us to fulfil it de! love me wholeheartly but not use to having me in your life, tell me you love me whenever you think that i felt no secure, tell me you miss me alot whenever you are in camp.you are just more than i need,i dun need anyone else in my life only you. baby you once say before i'm your everything,you can lose everything but not me remember? i just want both of us living peacfully with our never endless love in our whole world jiu enough le! baby,i love you eternity & i swear i will never ever leave you again like what i did the last time:D baby,lets go back to the past which only have us no other ppl else.learning to stop all quarrel,learning to stop doing all those things that both of us dun like at all,learning to say out everything that we feel but not hiding anymore,& learning to hold each other hand till the day we will lying in coffin.i want prove to all the people around us that our love is nothing breakable de! i love you baby,muacks~~

yawn~ what a tired day siol.have been sleeping late for past few days lurrhs.dunno why oso,although i'm tired but everytime i'm with baby i dun feel like sleeping:D ytd i was alone at bishan working,in the morning was busy dao dunno like what lurrhs! after work baby suppose to come and fetch me but he kuku(: go take train from bugis to paya lebar tot that there is MRT to bishan but he dunno the Circle line from paya lebar only goes to douby ghaut.so i met him at city hall instead,met up with zhenzhang.shop around at bugis street,den zhen zhang's friend came.went to iluma,window shopping.bought IP MAN2 movie tickets @ 8.20 :D and this movie is damn freaking nice,is worth to watch lor.after watching movie is like 10plus le?walk and slack around at bugis junction,sians liao den jiu take train back to cck.had supper): but i got exercise abit,instead of taking bus home.me and baby walk home(: reach home abt 1 le,pack thingys jiu off to bed le,and here i'm at work.i think ytd de food got porblem lurrhs,since 8plus in the morning till now,i had been going to the toilet and loa sai for 3 times le.BACKSIDE PAIN LURRHS,BODOH~ later dunno going where with baby,toodles~

currently at working and im so fcuking bored can): have been sitting in front of this lappy for almost 10hours lehs.eye is tired and im sick and tired of playing FB games): have been playing it since this morning lurrhs.ji gou li yi xia:D tml is a bishan,fat hope of bringing lappy go oso cause there de connection damn suck lurrhs.tml baby coming to fetch me,saturday after work we might be going bugis den to marina?i tink so lurrhs,with baby's campmates.gonna watch IP MAN2 could watch it last week as all FULL): we all the way go till town but all FULL den i not feeling well too,baby jiu bring me go home and leave his friend at town(: thanks baby.now i m thinking of something,wondering will baby come out tonite anot.i dunno why lurrhs,i miss him damn badly lurrhs.feel like hugging baby tight tight sia): toodles~~



ILY; IMY; INY baby TLHP

yawn,tired day. went to see doc today with baby,then went to yew tee point walk walk.caiyun called and ask to meet awhile,alright so we went to find her.headed home after that den till now.is like so happy,finally got 24hour with baby(: baby going back camp tml morning le and i'm working at tml afternoon.toodles~~


anyway,i love my baby to the max:D